"Marriage was a curse for me. I never imagined I would have to go through such hard times. After I my studies I started doing a job. Life was beautiful and everything was going so well. One day my parents asked me for marriage and I thought it’s time also for marriage and I said yes to my family. They found me boy who was rich and well settled. We started getting to know each other and I told him I will continue my job even after marriage and he approved. When I started getting to know him, I found him narrow minded, conservative and not so open minded. I told my parents I don’t want to marry this guy but they insisted he is rich and settled and I won’t find guy like him. They told me things will get better after marriage but I still insisted that I don’t want to marry this guy but no one heard my voice. Finally, I got married to him. On our first night I told him I am not ready for any kind of relationship and I need time. He agreed with that. But as days went on he could not wait and finally without my desire we had a relationship. I felt like I had been raped. I could not tell anyone about my situation. He would beat me and there would be scars which I could not show anyone. Whenever I would see sunset it would worry me. My in laws would ask me to have babies and that would torture me a lot.
They would blame me for having an affair with my colleagues and always fought with me. Sometimes I thought about suicide as I didn’t see any hope that my relationship would be better. Then again I didn’t dare commit suicide and I was thinking of getting divorced and asked my parents about that and they said it’s not the right decision. One day I said to myself, if I don’t fight now then I will never be happy and asked him to divorce me. He didn’t agree but I did not change my decision about divorce and after a long battle I am now divorced. My family are not still happy but I cannot bear any torture. Now I am out of that trauma but it was really a long way. I request to all parents, do not let your daughters to be slave of this society and culture. We need to change otherwise we will be dominated always. We should be treated equally.” (Kathmandu)